His name was Bryan.

I hadn’t worked there for very long, so I didn’t know who she was talking about. I told her I would keep my eye out for him and think about it. A little while later, while I was working another Target employee came through my lane. He was buying toys and food for a dog.  We got chatting about his dog, Phoebe. How long he had her, what kind of dog she was and I looked up from the register and noticed his name tag. It was the Bryan that Kylee had told me about. She was right; he was cute.

After that initial meeting, nothing happened.  We closed together a few times and we chatted when we saw each other. During one closing night I remember putting away abandons with him and his two friends, Brett and Shaun in A and B, standing by the greeting card aisle. They were shooting elastic headbands at me. Now that I think about it, I don’t think that Bryan shot any at me, or Brett, it may have just been Shaun.

Another night we closed together I was talking with him in between toys and the seasonal section of Target. As I walked away Janeen, one of our fellow Target employees, came up to me and asked me what I thought of Bryan. I was putting on chap stick and told her that I didn’t know. I had never thought about it.  She told me that she thought that he and I should go on a date. We would make a cute couple, she said.

(It’s funny the things you remember.)

Janeen happened to also be one of the team leaders over the cashiers. So when I worked, I had to do what she asked. One evening, the store was super slow so we were all just kind of standing around talking.  I was talking with Janeen and Bryan came up again. She really thought we should go on a date and she was determined to make sure it happened.  She disappeared for a little while coming back with a bow from the gift wrapping section. It didn’t have a tag and needed one.  She told me that I needed to go over to the aisle and find Bryan and have him get me a number so we could make a tag for it.

I found Bryan and he got me a number for the bow and asked if I wanted to go and get some ice cream at Sonic after work. And we had our first date, one summer evening at Sonic in American Fork.

Now, six years later, we celebrate our four year wedding anniversary. It’s amazing how something as small as a white gift wrapping bow without a tag can change your life forever (with a little help from Janeen, Kylee and a few of our other Target friends…).

The story doesn’t end there, the next two years before we actually got married is full of all kinds of drama and intrigue… but I’ll save that for another day.

Bryan: I love you more today than I ever thought possible.  Thanks for marrying me.

My little alien

Our Story:

As I mentioned in my last post, the doctor was getting worried about my blood pressure, so I was on bed rest for about a week. During that time, I was in and out of the doctor’s office and hospital being monitored to make sure that my blood pressure wasn’t going to elevate more and develop into anything more serious.

(This is going to be long… but you are reading my blog, so obviously you want to hear all about my story. And, I have to have a record of it lest I forget)

Thursday night, I went to bed looking forward to another exciting day of bed rest. I woke up around 1:30 with a pretty painful contraction. I walked around for a minute and got back into bed and went to sleep. Around 2:30 I woke up again with another contraction. After it was over, I tried to go back to sleep only to be stopped by continuing contractions.

Inside, I think I knew that he was coming and I could only think, “No, you can’t come today, this is the only day that mom can’t come to the hospital.” (She had a field trip with her students.) But the contractions kept coming and there was nothing I could do.  I wondered around the bedroom trying anything to make myself more comfortable though the pain. I started timing, and the contractions were getting closer and closer.

Around 3:45, I woke up Bryan telling him that he needed to wake up now, I think I’m having this baby. It took him a little bit and a couple of poking, but he finally woke up. I wondered around the bedroom some more and he rubbed my back through a couple of contractions, before we decided to call my mom. My contractions were a little different than the doctor and my mom had said they would feel, so I wasn’t totally sure if I was actually having real contractions. And after being in and out of the hospital the last two weeks, the last thing I wanted to do was go over there only to be sent home.

I called my mom knowing that at 4 a.m. it would be hard to get her on the phone.  I heard her on the other line pick up her phone, and then close it. “Great, she thinks I’m her alarm,” I thought.  “Mom, Mom, this isn’t your alarm; answer your phone. I’m on the phone; answer the phone.”  (She answered her phone thinking it was her alarm, then set it back on her nightstand. I knew that if I just talked loud enough into the phone, she’d finally answer.)

After chatting for a few moments we concluded we should go to the hospital. So I brushed my teeth and brushed my hair (a little earlier, while wondering around my room in pain, I had thought about getting in the shower, and briefly considered it again, but decided against it). Bryan got dressed, we let the dog out and away we went.

We arrived at the hospital around 4:30. Bryan dropped me off at the front door and went to park the car. I walked in and the security guard offered me a wheel chair. In my head I laughed a little bit thinking about all the television shows I had seen with the woman freaking out in the lobby of the hospital, doing her labor breathing as they wheel her up to the delivery room in a wheel chair. As I wasn’t freaking out, and could still waddle, I declined the wheel chair knowing that Bryan would catch up with my by time I made it to the elevators  — He did, because I had to stop walking half way to the elevators with another contraction.

We got up to labor and delivery and were hurried into a room to be monitored. I was dilated to a 3 and things were looking good to have the baby. We sat and waited an hour watching the contractions on the monitor, well Bryan watched the contractions on the monitor with lots of helpful words of encouragement like, “Oh, that was a good one” and “that one was bigger than the last one” or “it will be cool when you can get four peaks on the screen at the same time.”

I can’t really imagine being the husband just watching your wife go through labor. I know he wanted to help me and somehow make the pain go away, but he couldn’t do anything and just had to sit there and watch as I mumbled to myself, “no, no, no. I don’t want to do this” or “I can’t do this; I can’t do this; I can’t do this” or “I changed my mind.”

After they watched us for an hour, my contractions continued to get closer together and more painful and I was dilated to a 4 — so they decided to officially admit us.

They moved us into a delivery room and started to hook me up to more monitors. The nurse was wonderful and did everything she could to make me comfortable. Then, she asked the golden question, “are you ready for your epidural?”

Yes, yes I was.

They hooked me up to an IV and showed Bryan some things he could do until the epidural arrived to help lessen the pain of the contractions.  The nurse told me we were very lucky, because we were able to catch the anesthesiologist before he was going to be busy for 2 hours helping with a c-section.

Dan, the anesthesiologist, came in and they told Bryan he had to sit down in the chair right in front of me and hold my hand. “We can’t have you standing up and hitting the floor during this,” they said.  Then they told us about more than one dad who saw the needle and passed out.

The epidural was heaven. It was kind of funny though, because it worked first on my one side of my body and not the other, so I could feel the left side, but not the right.  It trickled to the right side, but I felt a little lopsided for a little bit.

Through this whole process they had closely been monitoring my blood pressure and just after I received the epidural, the doctor came in and decided he was a little worried about my blood pressure still and didn’t want anything to happen later during labor and put me on an IV of magnesium. This added a little bit of drama to the whole situation and tons more wires, tubes and monitors attached to my body.  At one point during labor, I had 9 different things attached to me. I felt a little bit like the back of my computer tower at work with everything attached to me and connecting me to so many different things.

After I received my epidural, everything seems to move into hyper-speed. My parents showed up and so did Bryan’s parents. I was dialated to a 6 and even though I couldn’t feel any thing but pressure, my contractions were consistent and from the look of the spikes on the screen, would have been pretty painful (thank goodness for modern medicine).

The thing that I thought was so amazing about labor was how instinctive everything seemed to be.  It was as if my body knew what it needed to do and although the monitors were telling me what should happen, I knew myself.

After kicking everyone out of the room except the nurse, Bryan and my mom I knew it was time to push.  I told the nurse, I was ready and I needed to push.  She told me just to hang on for a few seconds and then we could push. She check and I was completely dialated and ready to go.  She said I could start pushing and explained to me what I needed to do.  She went and got to the doctor and we were on our way.

After about an hour of pushing, at 10:45 a.m. he was here.  Over my stomach, after he arrived, I could see little hands and fingers moving — it was a baby.  Then I heard him cry and I knew — it was MY baby.

My Baby

Yes, I cried.

They were a little worried about his breathing so after cleaning him up a little bit, measuring and weighing him, he and Bryan went downstairs to make sure he was okay.

And the nurse brought me a Mr. Pibb and cookies.  Ahhh — Wonderful.

It was an amazing day.  Here’s more pictures:

Baby and Mommy

Baby Toes

Family Photo

Grandma and Baby James

Stretching

So Tiny

Bryan's Best Birthday

The day we came home from the hospital was Bryan’s 26th birthday. He was a little sad James didn’t wait just a few more days to share a birthday with him, but it was still Bryan’s best birthday present ever.  We had a small celebration for Bryan that night with 24 candles and 2 matches. He’s a wonderful dad. One of my absolute favorite things about becoming a mom is watching Bryan become a dad. He’s so cute with James. Bryan made sure and introduced James to Jazz basketball the first night he was here with us. It was so cute.

Because it has taken me so long to record the events of that wonderful day, so much seems to have happened already since then. So I’ll leave you with a video. Our baby has the most amazing neck strength already. On Saturday, at 8 days old he was enjoying “tummy time” with Bryan at my parents house and wanted to get a better look at the world.

Last Tuesday, Bryan and I celebrated our 3 year anniversary.  Even though we didn’t do anything super exciting, I must post about it. We just went out to eat, and then to Target to buy a fan for our bedroom (and we found an awesome fan that has a remote, sadly though the remote didn’t work).

But, I am so happy that Bryan and I are married.  I often think about how much I like being married to him.  He is wonderful. I think I’ll keep him for a little bit.

I have been so touched by the number of people who have told me that they have been praying for Bryan and me (I even had one of my friends tell me, “If I did pray, I’d pray for you). As I have reflected on this and what it actually means I am so deeply touched and am so thankful that there are people that care that much about me.

For me, the time that I spend in prayer with my Heavenly Father is one of my favorite times of the day.  Its the time of the day that I have all to myself to express my emotions, feelings and thoughts to my Heavenly Father.  I feel like it’s my personal and private time with Him, a loving Father who I know is listening.  And just to know that people are taking time out of their personal and private time with their Heavenly Father to think about me and ask Him to help me.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I know that this is a part of prayer, to think of the other people and pray for them as well (I include other people in my prayers), but I had never thought about it in this way before and am so touched by the love this shows. I can’t really even express how much it feels and what it really means to me.  I’m trying to express it, and as I read through it, it just doesn’t feel like I’m saying it right.

Anyway, I just wanted to thank you for the prayers (or good thoughts, or hopes or whatever they may have been) you may have expressed in my behalf and let you know how much it truly means to me.

Thank you.

As I have read The Book of Mormon, it always seems that when I get to the Book of Moroni, I read the whole book all in one sitting (it’s not that big, so it’s not too hard). And the Spirit that I feel as I read Moroni’s last words to us is always so strong. It’s amazing.

This time as I read through Moroni’s words I was reminded that the Lord does have a plan for me. Through our faith and as we continue to follow the plan he has set, He will guide us to do what He wants us to do.

It’s good to be reminded sometimes.